So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again
- Bachelor Girl
"I've got a I don't need it, I just want it, kinda feeling."
"I've got a I want to spend some money, kinda feeling."
it would traumatise my dad.
thank heavens he wasn't there.
"...kinda feeling."
lately, i've been feeling melancholy. as far as i know, that doesn't normally mean a good thing. i do enjoy the company of friends, but i somehow prefer just being by myself. everything's just been going so fast. i just wanna be able to sit at the bleaches or at the library once in a while without someone msging me or finding me for assignments, reminding me of deadlines, wanting my company, or myself having to rush off to every other part of the school looking for people.
i think i need a breather.
i'm stressed out. i can barely keep my eyes open. i'm in the middle of a biology lecture and my eye starts twitching from lack of sleep. i'm having problems focusing on the simplest things like trying to read a book or doing a basic algebraic equation. people are just so irresponsible. they know what they have to do, they know, and yet i have to remind them over and over again. it's not like we have all the time in the world. if we did, i wouldn't give a fuck when you all replied or did your assignments. you people don't even have the decency to reply msgs just to let me know if you're going to attend the meeting. really. and don't tell me to "chill". just do your job an quit whining.
"bie li de gu shi" (yes, i do know chinese.)
chinese class today. a couple of stories from the textbook we were given. ben was talking about them, in particular the second story. i don't know. i think he's right. but i ain't saying anything. i just need... i need reassurance. i'm having doubts. i keep waiting. i'll always be waiting. i only hope it doesn't turn out the same. i don't need to go through the whole rollercoaster again. been there, had that, don't need it again. soon, i can only hope.
i think i'll go plonk around on the piano.
what iAMY has to sing, has been heard.
what iAMY has to sing, has been heard.
OMG. TEMPEST IS OVER. there are pros and cons. for one, now that it's over, i can actually concentrate on my studies. i really need to catch up 'cause i'm lagging behind quite bad, from skipping school and the long hours of rehearsals. BUT. tempest was such fun. although, you tend to annoy and get annoyed by people a lot more easily 'cause everyone's in this "mood", it was a lot of fun.
the week into the actual shows, was not one of my better weeks. problems at home, the screaming, the scolding, the fighting, the cursing and swearing.. etc. was a really difficult week for me, but thanks to some people, you know who you are, i managed to cope pretty well. yep. embarrassed myself a couple of times when i broke down in front of everyone when i answered certain phone calls, but thanks for not.. making me feel awkward. anyway, here are some photos of THE TEMPEST, BEHIND THE SCENE. the ghastly makeup, the outrageous hair (mine done oh so beautifully by Lindis, with occasional assistance from Janiah), the warm up gear, the aching muscles, and the much needed sleep. haha. right.
the most wonderful skank and i. Hazri, you're damn adorable and hot ok. thanks so much for the note.
i think we just look so so so so so SEXY. don't you agree? i bet you do. Chin Hua - the Fairy King, myself - the Fairy Goddess (i felt like a fruit), Disha - the Fairy Gangsta and Noel - the Fairy Submarine.
my old man. he's 69. X)
2 fairies and a courtier. Maggie, myself and Aini.
to all those who came down to support, like half my class 1SC8 I LOVE YOU GUYS! thanks for the flowers, especially Ben!!, Ms Azlina my form teacher, Josiah and gang, Justin and gang, Kok Swee (omg, thank you for the flowers), Quan Rong, Reuben, Dharsh (the bouquet was luvlay!) and so many many others, sorry if i missed your name out.
thanks for supporting ACSian Theatre's The Tempest. X)
what iAMY has to sing, has been heard.
i'll be skipping like the whole of next week of school. going in on monday morning, die at mass PE, and then by 1.10pm, i'm out of school and into theatre til show ends. which is saturday.
those who still want to go for it, and i suggest you do, pls contact me and let me know. like ASAP, or forever hold your peace.
sleepy sleepy.
yesterday, i had rehearsals til 6, followed by a meeting with pre u seminar presenters, HONESTLY, priscilla, darling, I COULD STRANGLE YOU. you left me with the 5 guys. -.- obviously not much work was done. -.- they were gaying around more than half the time. tsk. especially gerald and bernard. GET A ROOM YA'LL. ew. ew. ew. ew. ew. only farhan behaved. ok. but it was fun.
i really wanted to go TRIBUTE TO BROADWAY and watch michael perform. he actually shaved! as dinesh so happily pointed out -.- he looked a DECADE younger. but i prefer him with his beard and moustache. i wanted to go... but couldn't go.. sucks.
i think i shall go watch CSI now. adieu.
what iAMY has to sing, has been heard.