So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again
- Bachelor Girl
"I've got a I don't need it, I just want it, kinda feeling."
"I've got a I want to spend some money, kinda feeling."
it would traumatise my dad.
thank heavens he wasn't there.
"...kinda feeling."
lately, i've been feeling melancholy. as far as i know, that doesn't normally mean a good thing. i do enjoy the company of friends, but i somehow prefer just being by myself. everything's just been going so fast. i just wanna be able to sit at the bleaches or at the library once in a while without someone msging me or finding me for assignments, reminding me of deadlines, wanting my company, or myself having to rush off to every other part of the school looking for people.
i think i need a breather.
i'm stressed out. i can barely keep my eyes open. i'm in the middle of a biology lecture and my eye starts twitching from lack of sleep. i'm having problems focusing on the simplest things like trying to read a book or doing a basic algebraic equation. people are just so irresponsible. they know what they have to do, they know, and yet i have to remind them over and over again. it's not like we have all the time in the world. if we did, i wouldn't give a fuck when you all replied or did your assignments. you people don't even have the decency to reply msgs just to let me know if you're going to attend the meeting. really. and don't tell me to "chill". just do your job an quit whining.
"bie li de gu shi" (yes, i do know chinese.)
chinese class today. a couple of stories from the textbook we were given. ben was talking about them, in particular the second story. i don't know. i think he's right. but i ain't saying anything. i just need... i need reassurance. i'm having doubts. i keep waiting. i'll always be waiting. i only hope it doesn't turn out the same. i don't need to go through the whole rollercoaster again. been there, had that, don't need it again. soon, i can only hope.
i think i'll go plonk around on the piano.
what iAMY has to sing, has been heard.