So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again
- Bachelor Girl
before i knew you'd be more.
i wish i could forget all those things that happened to me or otherwise. i wish people could forget them too. but that's not possible. i must come to terms with it, and accept the consequences. the hurt, the pain, the irritation and what not, whether gained or caused.
justin said in jest that i'd never been innocent. i'm beginning to find truth in that statement, i can only hope i'm making a mountain out of a molehill. as compared to what others have done, my crimes would seem insignificant, but that does not make me better than them. i still did something wrong.
i need to let go.
you need to let go.
i cannot hold on to the past. always wondering what might have happened had i done things differently. i don't mean i should forget - though i wish i could, but rather, to come to terms with it and let go. what i've done in the past, i've done. i can regret all i want to and i can apologize all i want, but the fact is, i'd done it. so i can only make the best of it. please, let go. i am not the person sitting at delifrance or dancing on stage. i am the person who is standing beside you and tripping over the next step or walking into walls.
waiting.
i have to stop all this nonsense. i need to get my life sorted out and start walking on my path. the path i was on but veered off halfway.
cruzing along.
i know where i'm going.
... but i'll need help. would you?
what iAMY has to sing, has been heard.