So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again
- Bachelor Girl
i respect your privacy, i respect who you are, what you do and every aspect of your nature - the flaws, the imperfections, the intelligence, the humour and the diligence you have. i respect, the person.
i shall choose to speak from a more personal perspective, as it would probably convey my thoughts and emotions better. to be a friend, is a choice made by the individual. if someone were to claim to be your friend but ask for something in return, then he or she is no friend at all. friends are there because they want to be, they choose to be, not because they want something out of it.
to me, i will not stay too near, such that he or she feels suffocated and enclosed, yet, i will not stay too far to make him or her feel alone and isolated. i will stay just near enough that he or she can call me when i am needed, and far enough for when he or she would rather be by oneself. i know that to you, self-reliance is the way to go, that to depend on others is showing signs of complacency, of weakness, perhaps i've read it all wrong, then you can choose to correct me.
this is my opinion on self-reliance. it is more of a way to maintain one's individuality, to not succumb to the influences of our fast-paced conformed society. however, there is a fine line between self-reliance and completely isolating one's self and refusing to depend on any soul for the fear of having to do a favour in return. maintaining one's individuality and going into complete solitude are 2 very different things.
as Ralph Waldo Emerson said: "It is easy in the world to live after the world's opinion; it is easy in solitude to live after our own; but the great man is he who in the midst of the crowd keeps with perfect sweetness the independence of solitude."
there is a limit to self-reliance. on a more crude note, did you rely purely on yourself to grow up? to nurture your talents? to get the grades you've gotten? being capable and self-reliant are not the same.
it is not a crime to rely on someone. neither is it a bad thing.
i understand where you are coming from. i know what you mean. i can empathize. maybe it's just a phase, but i would like to see the old person back, the one i was fond of.
you do not owe us, or me, anything. the journey thus far has been a pleasure and it's not going to be over any time soon.
trust me.
"You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough." - Frank Crane
what iAMY has to sing, has been heard.