So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again
- Bachelor Girl
the feeling is the pits.
you don't know where you went wrong, you don't know what to do.
i don't get what's happened to you. one moment your my best bud, my homie and the next second, you're ignoring me, hanging out with bad company and treating me like i ain't worth shit. well, thanks bro. sometimes, people just need wake up calls, to see who's worth their time and effort...
and who's not.
that aside...
i'm f***ing grounded. great yo. i told the (as he with the sexy love handles puts it, which i find hilarious) PARENTAL UNITS, about my grades and they laughed, and when my teacher tells them my grades, they kick me out of bed and blow up at me. and my teacher... ok, i ain't got nothing to say to him/her. he/she just got me into a whole lotta dirt saying stuff that i never said to him/her. petooey. so now, i can't watch tv (DAMN. it's not like i ever did before, just thursdays and sundays = 4 hours in total A WEEK.), 1/2 hour of msn a day (msn, pssh, whatever, makes no diff to me.), no going out with my friends (SHIT ASS.) and just study.. (EEEWWWW).
so, everything really stinks right now.
like karate. man, i used to love it, now it's all about winning. stupid mofo **&!?*&(&!!?$$#&)()&(&&??. i mean... they told me it'd be for the experience, for the heck of it. now they're telling me i gotta win something. i mean... aargh... is that all that this is about? my knees are injured so bad, i have problems walking up and down stairs. and now they want to send me for a few days in bangkok to train AGAIN. i mean, GIVE IT UP already. i'm FED UP. it'd be the 5th time i'm packing to go away! ah... whatever.
i never get to make my own decisions. i don't get to choose the subjects i want to study, i don't get to choose what i want to be, i don't get to choose the friends i hang ou with (actually, i do choose my own friends, and you should hear what my parents have to say about that.) they say: "you always hang with the wrong crowd! how can you hang with all these failures who're failing their subjects as well? i don't like his face, i don't like her dressing, but she's not chinese!"
oh eff.
so much for democracy.
what iAMY has to sing, has been heard.