So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again
- Bachelor Girl
for example,
how am i to master integration by monday?
how am i to complete chemistry by next friday?
how am i to convince the marker that elasticity in demand really isn't a problem?
how am i to coherently write an essay on dna, evolution and variation?
woe unto me.
beauty is in the eyes of the beholder i say.
and he proves me right.
what he sees in me, i'll never know.
but i don't need to know such minor technicalities.
i've got what i need.
indeed, all i ask for.
don't look at us or me with pleading eyes,
you know you brought it on yourself.
did you think you could get away so easily.
please dear compatriot, use your God given schemata.
or would i call you a compatriot? that would associating mine self with you.
would i really want to do that?
no fear, i'm not really the nasty.
just rather appalled by your lack of sensitivity and wisdom.
such is, we're now all condemned.
i will go down with this ship. not.
ah....what is a girl to do in such a world as this.
such a society that condemns the very values it tries to instill.
how very contradictory.
but of course, one cannot be so ignorant that there are changes.
for better or worse, to be or not to be.
that's not entirely the question,
but what the heck, yes?
one week left til freedom be mine.
and i shall be thine.
forever and ever.
post script.
an example of beauty eternalised and lost in time, like the pictures you find in old chinese history books. such is my grandmother.
what iAMY has to sing, has been heard.
LIKE....FINALLY!!!!!!!!!
haha, my cousin and his fiancee finally tied the knot today. after how many friggin' decades of courtship (excuse my finch).
wedding's are such good times to check out fashion dos and don'ts. however, because this is my relatives we're talking about. i'll just deal with the dos and leave the don'ts to rest in peace. or my red packets will rest in peace this comeing chinese new year, and i do like my red packets.
dharshini looked sooooo beautiful and kevin didn't look as fat. hahaha. sorry kevin, i am your evil lil cousin after all, and that's PAY BACK for putting me in a pink dress!! (i's one of the the bride's maids)
anyway, she looked absolutely stunning in a white toga gown with a trail from the sleeve all the way down (even longer than the trail on the floor) and a tiara. he was looking spiffy in a black suit and his hair gelled nicely like a oxford lawyer should. haha.
i shall post some photos up soon soon when i get them off my dad's laptop. just none of me in a pink dress. too bad folks. my bro needs to have steadier hands when taking photos, but some were really awesome stuff. for an 11-year old boy, it's super. but, of course, c'est moi being his absolutely evil sister, won't let him know that. muahaha. *evil grin*
alex (my other cousin, kevin's younger bro) has got the euro geek look going for him. my dad calls it the whatever look. he's got glasses from the 70s, the skinny tie, shiny white belt, tappered pants, a blazer a size too small, and WHITE CONVERSE SHOES. hahaha. it was the funkiest formal wear i'd ever seen. hahaa. only alex can pull it off. seriously. he's hansum yes.
his girlfriend, michelle, was going for the whimsical look. pretty in a green and white empire lined pantaloon frock, with matching platform-ish heels.
then jonathan's (my other cousin, alex younger brother. they're all brothers. bear with me, i have 22 immediate cousins and counting.) got the KOREAN look. zomg. his hair's wicked. he'll probably kill me, cos he keeps saying he's going for the JAP look. i say it's korean man!
and someone was looking absolutely dashing with a vintage mickey mouse tie. so classy. haha. goofy yet classy. or rather, mickey. haha. he threatened to wear pink, but i think he values his life way too much. haha.
my sister was the flower girl, looking pretty in pink in a multi-layered pink floral dress picked out from OG by dearest mummy and very nicely done up hair - 2 french braids fused into one, done by c'est moi of course. X)
my brother... mmm... well, he didn't look half bad except his shirt could have afforded to have been less....square-ish. my sister called him the king of chess and he called himself THE WORLD'S LARGEST TABLE CLOTH. ah well, sean, tonight you're wearing a different shirt for the dinner don't worry. haha.
dad and mum went for complementary shades of black, white and grey. i know most people would say: hello, 'tis a wedding, not funeral!
but i say: very very very elegant and classy.
mummy wore a white thick spag-strapped blouse that had an empire line and fanned out slightly with a slim long black skirt. very flattering.
daddy on the other hand wore his usual black pants and a white and grey striped shirt with a dog-print tie. haha.
uncle tony and auntie maisie (kevin's parents) looked great too. auntie maisie made an effort (well, duh, it is her eldest son's wedding), by wearing a green and orange baju kebaya with intricate embroidery left right and centre. i've never in the last decade seen uncle tony so dressed up. nicely pressed black suit that looks very very new, probably is and a nice big smile to match.
well, that's all for now from ms fashionista. will get back to ya in another post about tonight's dinner. should be fun. XD
what iAMY has to sing, has been heard.
what is the purpose?
what is the meaning?
how do you define it?
i'm an extreme person. i go from high to low in a matter of minutes.
just a message,
a phone call,
a letter,
a suggestion,
a hint,
a gesture,
and i've gone from good to bad.
i don't whip out M16 rifles or some unknown military machinery.
just.. bad.
sigh... how often we use this form of expression.
do i ask for much?
am i emotionally demanding?
how questionable is the question truly.
not a question, but a statement.
i am.
i am what i am.
and you are who you are.
nothing more nothing less...
what is said cannot be resaid...
what is done cannot be redone...
differently.
because, it's gone.
the moment flies by and you never really know what hits you til it's hit you.
don't you love those moments?
i do and i don't.
i do...
i like the unpredictability that situations can throw at you.
i like to be able to laugh at them if i'm successful,
and i like to burn all evidence that i even tried if i'm...
unsuccessful.
i like the thrill,
the adrenaline,
the emotions,
the chaos...
the euphoria.
i don't...
i like to know what i'm facing
what i need to go through
i like to be in the know
i need to be in the know
i want to be in the know
i don't care about knowing what happens to others
i'm not being self-centred, or maybe i am,
but the focus is,
me.
i need to work out my thoughts
process the equation
sort out the mechanism.
i need, i want...
need and want...
they've become blurry at this moment in time,
to me at least.
i want to know and yet i don't know what i need.
it's become insatiable.
an unquenchable desire for something i'm uncertain of.
how utterly confusing and consuming.
it's gone to the point where there is no point...
what iAMY has to sing, has been heard.
1. watch a chick flick just because.
2. poke my nose because it's "like a button".
3. give me his jacket when i'm cold, even though he's frozen.
4. finish my food when i almost never finish it.
5. eat the green pepper which i wanted and he didn't.
6. amuse himself with how cold my nose can get from drinking a mocha frappe.
7. look out for a starbucks outlet so i can buy that mocha frappe.
8. always let me make the decisions.
9. never tell me what i should or should not wear.
10. laugh at my evil thoughts.
11. try to outlast me, but never does.
12. blackmail me to see how long i'll last.
13. trip down the stairs to make me feel like less of a klutz (then again, i think that wasn't on purpose)
14. make sure i don't walk into doors
15. try to help me in my studies without confusing me further.
16. call me at night, just 'cause he knows i have free incoming calls.
17. tell me i'm beautiful/pretty.
18. let me mess up his hair.
19. always mess up my hair.
20. tell me he loves me.
forever and ever babe.
what iAMY has to sing, has been heard.
sorry, just been way too busy lately and when i'm not busy, i'm lazy, so now i've told myself: AMY, YOU HAVE TO BLOG.
this week of holidays has been very enjoyable. quality time spent with people. watching movies, chilling, studying at the library (yes, i do study. no, i'm not running a fever.), going out for meals. etc.
so yesterday, i went out for lunch with justin and freddie. went down to city hall's thai express. then we just hung about doing window shopping, staring at people, watching some performances by groove nation. so-so. deo and stephen could've given the beatboxer there a run for his money. anyway, we finally stopped at mcafe. AH, BUMPED INTO YU XUN. haha. he was with some friend supposedly studying. tried to study diversity and evolution, but ended up writing a paragraph of justin's econs essay for him. i left soon after, headed for town. BUMPED INTO SWEE along the way. haha. bumping into all the ac canoeists.
someone was looking all spiffy. i must admit though, he looked dashing - make any girl go weak in the knees. but of course, he's not to know that. gotta keep that ego of his in check X)
hokie, last night, went for inventio with krish, where we bumped into LC, deb, and jayne. like woohoo, my butt went numb after the first hour. those seats aren't very comfy. then again, i really shouldn't complain. the seats at the substation are worse. they're not even seats! as far as i'm concerned, they're an upward extension of the floor with flaps attached to one side. -.-
so... there to support all of the dep people. you lovely lovely people who smeared makeup and sweat all over me after the performance. haha. and my dearest disha, yes love, you succeeded in putting me into a state of complete bewilderment. ben, GO GET A HAIRCUT, chin hua, yes darl, SPIKE YOUR HAIR. don't ever let it down again. the horrors.
today.. went to sentosa for a while with my sibs and dad. mum had a giddy spell. went on the luge and skyride. fairly enjoyable yeh. but didn't like the skyride that much,
1. i'm afraid of heights
2. it was slow moving
3. under the hot sun with no form of protection (besides the ozone layer)
so, not that great for me.
did some baking. choc chip cookies.
anybody?
what iAMY has to sing, has been heard.