So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again
- Bachelor Girl
CURRENT MUSIC: Boston - Augustana
wow... it's already the 28th. that's just 3 more days before this year ends, that's a scary thought. i guess, it'd probably be due to me just not wanting to let 2006 go, but you and i both know that's just not even theoretically possible. it's been a 364.whatever year, but still.. it feels like.. it's gone by too fast. almost as if Mr Sandman decided to just put you to sleep and you woke up to find yourself at the end of the year. curse you, you fictional character.
BUT.. it's been a good year, despite less than desireable grades for chem and math, i'd say i'm fairly at peace with the rest of em blasted subjects.
it's as if it was just yesterday when i was first walking through the college gates lined with student councillors handing out candy. when i was splattered with mud and starch and got them in places i never knew it could.. well.. nevermind that. meeting old friends, making new friends. liking people, disliking people.. more so the former thankfully. as the year goes by, you slowly realises which ones you like more and which ones are there for you ever so often, thank you lovies. always the same 3 people, well, if i include loopy boy there, then fine, 4 people. haha.
ah.. let's do a littl recap of what i can recall of this year...
Jan:
happy birthday dad
mmm... mud mud starch soap mud mud starch.. soap.. grass.. hahaha
"i'm leaving on a jetplane" to Bangkok for an annual karate camp.
mm... SD2~ my first 3 months class.. you guys.. are seriously a loopy bunch. haha.
Feb:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!
valentine's day X) - breko's
funD-o-rama - HAHA
March:
er... rehearsals..rehearsals..er..
R.A.T.S.
happy birthday dish.
April:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY you dweeb of a brother
May:
happy birthday loopy boy <3
Pre-U Seminar right into June
June:
Pre-U Seminar
Somethingood - M.R.I.
Off on a jetplane to Bangkok for 2 weeks karate bootcamp. (ouch)
July:
Hi.. happy birthday mum and grandpa
exams.. aargh
Aug:
Off to Sydney for the Funakoshi Gichin Shotokan World Cup (8TH in the world BABY! woot. okok, down ego! down.)
Sept:
happy birthday joy
Oct:
exams...sigh
happy birthday ben chow
open house
Nov:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY my lil i-pretend-to-be-cute-in-front-of-others sister
Off to Perth.. hot stuff..
Dec:
CHRISTMAS uh huh uh huh.. hahaha.
sigh.. there'd be more.. just that.. i can't for the life of me recall the rest.. i'm not much of a morning person.
what iAMY has to sing, has been heard.
i don't entirely enjoy spending christmas with the family.. it's such a chore.. to me, family reunions over christmas, new year and other random festive seasons are just an excuse for your parents to fill your relatives in on every little dirty detail that you'd rather just shoot yourself in the temple than have them know. for those who know me well enough and long enough, you know a lot of the drama that goes on in this household, and you'd probably know where i'm coming from. as for the rest, you're probably thinking: IS SHE BLOOMING MAD?? family members buy you the best gifts and treat you the best!
blah blah blah blah. blaaahhhh. ok.
ANYHOOO.. for those who still owe me money, I WANT MY MONEY. thank you. haha. i don't want to be some loan shark chasing you for it. especially A*****... girl.. you owe me $45 for the last 3 damn years. i intend to get it before i expire. thanks.
i'm sooo upset. the gig that we were supposed to play for at the fullerton on the eve of christmas eve (that's the 23rd folks, in case i confused anyone) has been CANCELLED!! *gasp* yes... it has. so... now... i'll be...well..... ... bored. and V******'s coming out of camp on that day, so i'm not entirely required for something else now. which is a good and bad thing. bad thing cos.. i was looking forward to it.. good thing cos thinking about it now, i don't think i wanna embarrass myself in front of certain members of the audience. amen.
ah... it's the holidays man.. and i've got to memorise and learn every damn thing about alkanes and alkenes by tmr 4pm.. tuition.. sigh.. lucky me.
i need some lovin'.
what iAMY has to sing, has been heard.
*slams forehead on table a couple o' times.*
this is just ridiculous. i need to get out of this shit holeeeee..ladeedadeeda...
before i go blooming mad. not that i'm that far off, but all the more a reason to get my tush out of this... ecosystem./ where i happen to be at the bottom of the food chain.
mmmmmmm....
ah yes, all who would like golden country tickets for 5 JAN 2006, PLEASE DO FIND ME. please. yes. advertising done. $15. be nice, be gracious, be GENEROUS.
what iAMY has to sing, has been heard.
don't tell me i can't handle the truth, because you don't have the guts to tell it.
why do i have to find out from everyone else?
don't tell me to choose between your word and theirs, because there's clearly a flaw in the story.
discarded and burnt.
what iAMY has to sing, has been heard.
so many rules.. so many ... happenings..
it's suffocating..
why can't there be one moment where i can just stop.. and sit.. and stare.
maybe another day for those who have enjoyed the humour of the previous post, then i shall post another one. today isn't a day for such humour.
what iAMY has to sing, has been heard.
a home.
family.
what are..
parents.
siblings.
based on the oxford dictionary of 1978 - goes to show how updated i am. i have only one response. you have got to be kidding me. ha.
i scoff in complete indignation of such ridiculous emotions or connections that arise when people discuss such issues.
my opinion? well, let us recap...
what is a home?
answer, a house with random occupants.
what is family?
answer, a term given to the closer random occupants you live with which your moral ed teacher taught you in primary 1.
what are parents?
answer, dictators in disguise ready to overthrow the government anyday with catch phrases. formally known as Dictorial Parentica Itoldyousota. can be found at all factory outlets, rechargeable batteries included.
what are siblings?
answer, beings that either share the pain, or bring more.
they take your dreams and roll it up in a neat ball and toss it out the window into the nearest drainage system. if you're incapable of achieving their dreams or live the "ideal" life, then they proceed to make you feel like you're possibly the most pathetic creature on the face of the known planet and other existing galactic spaces, if any. it's like Battleship Parentica.
misery is a very good friend of mine when i find my being occupying space in the building. it's as though the moment i walk in, it triggers off some sensors that command: THE SPECIES We-asummet She-isan Idioticus HAS ENTERED THE BUILDING, ALL AVAILABLE Dictorial Parentica Itoldyousota TO COMMENCE IMMEDIATE ATTACK. DESTROY ALL COMMUNICATIONS (through confiscation of mobile system) AND ENSURE PERIMETER IS SECURED (aka, grounding for an unstated and unknown duration...)
i live in a drama series.. where i always lose.
thankfully i do have a rescue team.. mainly a one-man show - although more members have since joined, which conducts therapy and rehabilitation as well as retail therapy from time to time.
when will this end.. i long for the day when the credits pop up and i see The End.
then, i can start my own life.. with a special someone.. and lead my own dreams and do what i want to do.. til then... i'll just have to get through another ...to be continued...
what iAMY has to sing, has been heard.