So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again
- Bachelor Girl
CURRENT MUSIC: What Goes Around Comes Around - Justin Timberlake
it's a fairly sunny day, yet not one of those that are unbearably hot days.
it's a quiet day with the rest of the inhabitants out for a Mothers' Day lunch.
a light breeze blowing through the grills of the window, somewhat messing up my, unusually neat stack of notes and tutorials. although, one may observe that the Campbell Biology textbook does not budge one bit. that would require Hurricane Katrina. i actually got really bored this morning.. and weighed it. it weighs a grand total of 4.5kg.
despite the need to study The Genetics of Viruses and Bacteria, my mind's been drifting a lot. i came to a conclusion that i might as well type it all out and get it off my chest. although it may be open for public viewership, i've no qualms about it.
it only seems like yesterday that i remember posting all those "emo" updates.. when i thought i'd just made the biggest mistake in my life and wasted 5 months of it. i've always had this tendency to rush into things and make a mess out of it. or try and put a screen of delusionment hoping that'll it come true. after singing "Over You", i guess it kinda epitomised how i felt a year and a half ago. you were never the best for me, and it was never my loss. as far as i'm concerned, i've found someone better. ah, ok, this is all very very very very, extremely toooo emo for my liking. blast it to smithereens.
in any case, regardless of all the events that have happened and the pressure i've been facing. a few people have been there for me. i want to thank a particular friend. thank you mofo. for being there for me, through all my whiney shit ass moments. for putting up with rumours and stuff that arose when we carried the same Adidas sling bag, or how we have the same Tag Heuer watch (you have the male version, i have the female one. doh) and we wore it on the same days, just for fun and 'cause you whined. you and your girl problems, me and my every other problem. lol. thanks for listening to me bitch last night about the ****ing double standards thingy. "FRIENDSHIP IS A HUG JUST WHEN IT IS NEEDED."
to another good friend. although we may not have known each other for that tremendously long.. it's been a good time. i was pleasantly surprised that you kept the 3 (made during chapel) cranes. even though you weren't at Rock AC, you still got me flowers and you smsed to check on how it went. thank you so much. you're my "bitch". LOL. go. fetch. hahahaha. i know times may be tough for you right now.. but it'll all be better. here's a phrase for you: "THERE ARE BETTER THINGS AHEAD THAN ANY WE LEAVE BEHIND" -C.S. Lewis
finally, to my pillar of strength. you've always, and i do mean always, been there to catch me when i fall, both literally and metaphorically. even when i (metaphorically speaking) push you aside, you still hold on tight 'cause you know that as much as i'd like to think, i'm not that capable of looking after myself. i think i don't need to say anything more. you understand. "WHAT THE HEART HAS ONCE OWNED AND HAD, IT SHALL NEVER LOSE" -Henry Ward Beecher
'NOUGH EMO-NESS. LALALA LALA. right on. what's the difference between specialised and generalised transduction?
what iAMY has to sing, has been heard.